“I am centered, whole and healed.”

I am so proud of the growth I’ve witnessed over the last few years. Today, I stand proud of the woman I am. Building the fortress around me that protects my energy, my peace has been paramount to my ability to function. I am so glad I have my own mind. If I were to let this world tell me who I am, then I’d be such a lost little lamb. Knowing my true self and keeping my mission of self-preservation top of mind has been so key.

I am grateful for the self care practices that have been sustaining my wellbeing. My sister taught me that self-care goes beyond just taking bubble baths. It means not putting yourself in compromising positions. I was sent to this planet to save myself from any and all harmful situations. I am here to shine a healing light of peaceful abundance for myself and others. As I strive toward that goal, there are constant hurdles and distractions on the path meant to steer my focus away. Especially by miserable people. The people who pop up and have critical things to say about me always shock me because they are the same people who live incredibly tragic lives. So, the fact that they’ve allocated mental bandwidth to judging me when their basic necessities are barely being met is astounding.

Where I am energetically and spiritually, my only task during these moments is to exercise the maturity to ignore them. It’s only projection. They refuse to work on their own lives and spend so much time analyzing mine that they lack the basic tenets of self- awareness. It must suck to suck. I’m getting better and better at keeping my character so solid that the misery projections fall flat right before my feet. They don’t even penetrate my being.

My downfall and greatest weakness has for a long time been how much I care. My empathy would be so pure and deep that I once cared to clear the air with anyone and everyone who misunderstood me. Now, instead of begging and pleading to be liked and understood by people determined to be disgusted with me, I refocus that energy into just liking and approving of myself instead.

I leave energy vampires, monitoring spirits and all other entities of the dark right where they belong–in the gutter. Pick somebody else to smear that negativity on. I am over here on a quest to constantly evolve. I don’t even entertain criticism from negative people because that wouldn’t be a wise use of my time. The people that have a problem for every solution are committed to that dark kind of mindset. One that is totally misaligned with me and how I roll. My formative years were riddled in relentless critique. Only for me to grow up and realize it was all just resentment, envy and hate. Nothing more and nothing less. Here I was internalizing all that noise, thinking something was deeply flawed in me.

Since then, I’ve spent two decades transmuting it into useful energy that has propelled me to unimaginable heights. It’s not an easy task by any stretch of the imagination because I have to tow a fine line of being in the now and not in the past. However, I am glad to be doing the alchemist’s work. I see that I need to put up that protective fortress around my energy. Having tough skin and firmly protected boundaries is a basic element of how I maintain my sense of human decency. Without the ability to reject being dragged energetically every which way, I’d be lost and drifting like so much of the world is today.

I am happy I trusted my own evolution long enough to see the growth. My determination is so strong at this point, I can disarm attacks in my sleep. Even though my patience and growth is tested from time to time, my progress always shows strong results. “The results always tell the truth,” according to the late, great Bob Proctor. The results I’ve gotten thus far make all the drama of my past worth my while. I know there are more obstacles up the road, but what we not gone do is back track. Like Kamala says, “We’re not going back.” The future looks bright and my path looks clear. I am so proud to say that I am centered, whole and healed.

08/25/2024 -Ariel Celeste

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