Lately, I’ve been feeling like I’m here and not here all at once. I’m present in my body, but distant from the sensations humans are supposed to feel… or even the feelings I used to feel. I’m attentive in conversations–but also zoned out. Is my consciousness working part time in another dimension?

I’m experiencing each moment of every day with a degree of numbness. I can’t quite place this feeling or lack thereof. I can’t say with confidence this is a feeling I’ve felt before. I’m clear of obstacles and clear on my next steps– but lost in my feelings.  

Have you ever felt empty and fulfilled at the same time?

I have everything I want, but there’s still a feeling of yearning. Yearning for what? I can’t say. Am I ascending? Is this void an empty space that I recently cleared on purpose by letting go?

Should that space remain empty or should I be filling it with new sensations? Is this feeling part of my expansion? This empty space may very well be the room I’m meant to make for others. If that’s the case, I’m A-Okay with it. I’ll embrace it and make good friends with it. 

It feels like I’m cozying up with a stranger. A stranger who feels familiar. Like a long lost relative–if you will. An entity that shares my DNA, but that has been gone so long, we don’t know each other anymore. However, the gravitational pull between us makes it obvious we are meant to know each other. 

I’m beyond thankful for everything in my life. Every person in my circle is pure light. This is exactly what I pray for each day. So what exactly is this emptiness about? Where is the stream of joy that once naturally oozed from my essence?

Perhaps this is simply a phase and this, too, like all things will pass. Perhaps this is how I’ll feel for a while. This could be the result of the “weight loss for the mind” steps I’ve been taking. Dropping dead weight to make room for expansion— or maybe emptiness. 

Perhaps I am making room for the blessings I deserve. Emptying is a necessary step to receiving the abundance that’s on its way. I will remain open and curious. I am an instrument for the universe’s agenda. I am raising my hand each day to be a willing and able participant in the turning of the tides.

My cup being empty is perhaps a wonderful thing! I am going to assume positive intent on behalf of my higher self.

I am doing so well in every aspect of my life and I am thankful. I am manifesting increased awareness as I continue forward on this good ole journey we call life. I am trusting the universe to keep me covered along the way.

-Ariel (09/16/2023)